Dear blog readers,
Welcome to my life. I am Natasha Ghiloni and I am 19 years old. In a few weeks I will be moving to Prague to study at the University of Economics for my third year as an International Business student.
So, how does this make me feel? I have no idea. Currently I am completely unprepared both physically and mentally for this trip and don’t really know what I’m meant to be doing at all. At the moment I am pretty calm and nonchalant about the whole thing – but this is purely because it has not sunk in yet. Currently my brain seems to refuse to register the fact that in a few weeks time I will be living and studying in a country I have never even been to before and that is really about time I got my finger out and started getting ready…
When I tell people that I am going to study in Prague for a year they react in one of two ways: they either tell me how excited I should be and what a great time I’m going to have or they ask me how scared I am about living on my own in a country where I don’t know anyone and don’t speak the local language and then proceed to list all of the terrible things that could happen to me (the latter was my mum’s reaction).
I agree with both. I cannot wait to get out of Scotland and experience studying in a completely different environment and have no doubt that it will be one of the best experiences of my life.
However I do have my worries. Not about going by myself or not speaking the language. I’m sure I’ll get by. I worry more about my social skills. I’m really shy and don’t make new friends easily. It takes me a long time (or a lot of alcohol) to become comfortable around new people. I’m worried that although I will meet lots of people and make new acquaintances my shyness will hold me back from making any actual friends and therefore make the experience a lonely one.
However, his is not the attitude I am going to leave with. This experience is what I make it – and I intend to make it bloody good! In a new country, around new people I don’t have to have all the insecurities I have here – I can be whoever I want to be. I can take this opportunity to make myself a better person and work on the things that hold me back. I will be forced to get over my fears (and I have a lot of them) and to grow up. At the same time, it is the perfect way to enjoy being young!
On the academic side, I’m scared. Scared of studying in a new system ; working under new expectations; studying in a uni where english isn’t the main language… but most of all I’m worried about fitting my studying in around all the fun I’ll be having ..
YOU DID NOT TELL ME YOU WERE GOING TO PRAGUE.
Amazin’! When do you clear out? I go Tuesday, I’m terrified.
Also, no friends? You managed me! See?
Or did you mean, you know, quality friends. Hee. x
I’m terrified too!!
But at least I’m not going to have to strey too often from english.. then again if I do i’m streying into the most difficult eastern european language.
I’ll be coming on to read about your adventures in Paris … and check I’m having more fun!!
I go on sunday. Not prepared yet.
Good luck for tomorrow! x
PRAGUE!!!!! thats cool! It does however mean your not going to Milan! How will I cope without you? I am definitely going to get lost now!
Yeah! I’m looking forward to it. Sadly it does mean my already loose grasp of the italian language is going to suffer, but hey – you can catch me back up next year 🙂
Haha, Lets face it – I was never really going to be much help there!